Meet Sabrina: Mom to two earth angels and one angel in heaven.
I am beginning a new Category called 'Inspirational People'. These are ordinary people who have courageously battled life. Their stories are meant to inspire and encourage us.
"I became an internet junky after that searching for any clues as to how he died because I still had no answers from any doctors. Three months of searching lead to all these websites of families who were also dealing with this pain. I wasn't alone even though I felt more alone than ever before. My family was great as they let me talk about it but sometimes I felt they were obligated to listen to me and it became uncomfortable to talk to certain people.
Not many people understand what it is like to suffer such a loss and not every loss is the same. Everyone copes with it in different ways. I was addicted to graphic design learning it myself online. I began making little graphics in memory of Nicholas sharing his story through loss groups or blogs for forums for pregnancy and infant loss. I was one of the few that did not take any medication to help with my loss. Before my son died, I barely used the internet. The grieving process took about 2 years. It's amazing how you go through certain stages in the grieving process.
When I look back, I can see those stages and remember how I felt when I went through them. Denial was one. Then there was anger, which seemed the longest. I couldn't talk or look at a pregnant woman, or newborn babies, but eventually I started talking about it with others and saw the value in helping other families cope. Doing this really helped me heal and in the end I started to believe the reason he died was partially because I was meant to help other people who are grieving.
One of my purposes was to help mothers and fathers cope with their losing their baby. I want to take what I have experienced and help other parents who have lost a child. I joined a foundation that was dedicated in helping families cope. I delivered bears and cards strictly for parents who have lost a child, in my region/cities. I met some great nurses and hospital staff that were happy to have my gifts delivered for grieving families. To know that I was able to help someone was so important for me. As time went on, I actually suffered two more losses. One early miscarriage and one 12 week miscarriage. Finally after two years, I became pregnant."
To be continued -
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