I am beginning a new Category called 'Inspirational People'. These are ordinary people who have courageously battled life. Their stories are meant to inspire and encourage us.
Meet Sabrina: Mom to two earth angels and one angel in heaven.
"We arrived at the hospital just after 4pm which was about half hour after we left the doctors office. Three nurses tried to get the heartbeat and my OBGYN happened to be on duty so they called him in and he tried. Still nothing. I was not sure how to feel at this time even though the nurses were still optimistic.
They sent me for an ultrasound and I was not able to see anything. The technician was extremely quiet. My husband watched everything and described what he saw. Since he was not able to read the ultrasound, he assumed everything was fine. He told me our son had his knees up and arms across his chest. At about 7:30pm a nurse and my obgyn came in to see me. They sat next to me on the bed held my hands and gave me the worst news I had ever heard in my entire life.
They left us alone to decide on waiting until my body went into labor or to have me induced that night. My husband called our family to let them know. My parents and our very close family friends were together and arrived at the hospital not to long after. We agreed to be induced that night and all the while I prayed they were wrong and if he was born he would be ok cause I was 36 weeks, so it wasn't too early for him to come out now. Seventeen hours later, Nicholas was born. There was no physical evidence that anything was wrong. No heartbeat, no breathing... nothing.
All I can remember was one nurse crying. Next, we had him baptized with our family present. And then he stayed in the room with us, they did what they could to help me sleep but nothing worked. Leaving the hospital was hard, because I just given birth and no child was coming home with me. The funeral took place on memorial day weekend (for the states) but it was all over the news being advertised so I remember it every year on that day. We didn't go straight home, we actually stayed at my parents place and then my in-laws. They planned to take the baby room down but didn't by the time we went home. The door stayed shut for a long time. Everything was purple and yellow with snoopy decorations. it was a rare theme couldn't really find anything for it unless we went to Toys R Us in Buffalo which was our plan he was due June 15thFathers day that year. He was a month early and passed away so we never made it out to Buffalo. I think it was a few weeks before I attempted to go into the room. I had a real hard time for the first three months. I barely slept, I had to take sleeping pills to get any sleep... The vision of his birth and him after were so vivid in my mind I re-lived it every night....."
To be continued.
Jesse
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